Tuesday, December 29, 2020

Love letter ....

 I will never say I love you , I do not need to tell you that , you already know this from what I speak , write, how I behave…


On the other hand , I will always have doubts about your love ,till I die ,so I will never be able to believe what you say…so you also need not say you love me….


Sometimes I think ,the you in my head is much better than the actual you… Are you even real or exist just in my head ? Am I in love with you or just the idea of love  ?

As a famous character in a book said " It is all happening inside your head , but that does not mean it is not real…" Scary , isn't it ?


Most of the time , I also think "why did I meet you" … I was tranquil, complacent ,even happy before that….


I don't understand myself… is this really me ? Who is experiencing these violent emotions ? Who is this who thinks of throwing herself from the top floor of the building ? Is this real or am I living a role ? The role that is slowly replacing the real me…


I do not like this me at all.. the one who continuously thinks about you and talks to you in my head… There is also a sane ,rational me in my mind who tells this mad me to run away...as far as possible… nothing good can come out of this…


Without offering resistance , I try to float in this flood of emotions , but still secretly hoping that the flood carries me away from you….



That is why… I will always try to run away from you...Not because I am angry or hate you , but to protect my heart,my self, my sanity ….

Whatever you say , I will always attempt to go away… not sure if I will ever succeed…  but try, I will… always…


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